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[12 Aug 2005|11:25pm] |
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Yea so I decided to make my journal friends only and shit so if u wanna be added just comment.
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[01 Aug 2005|12:15am] |
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yea so gotta go to pep boys tomorrow and get my car's tire fixed. finally. then i gotta take the dog to the groomers to get all her ticks freakin off. then i probly got sum other shit to do so...
then tuesday think im hangin out with kyla and maybe neelam. not sure but hopefully we can.
then wednesday hangin out with brian. woot! yea....
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| Motion City Soundtrack |
[29 Jul 2005|01:32am] |
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Give me a reason to end this discussion,
To break with tradition.
To fold and divide.
Cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes,
Talking with strangers, waiting in line..
I'm through with these pills that make me sit still.
"Are you feeling fine?"
Yes, I feel just fine.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
I'm sick of the things I do when I'm nervous
Like cleaning the oven or checking my tires
Or counting the number of tiles in the ceiling..
Head for the hills, the kitchen's on fire!
I used to rely on self-medication,
I guess I still do that from time to time.
But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Give me a reason (I don't believe a word)
To end this discussion (of anything I've heard)
To break with tradition (they tell me that it's not so hard)
To fall and divide (it's not so hard)
So let's not get carried (away with everything)
Away with the process (from here to in-between)
of elimination (the long goodbye)
I don't want to waste your time.
Tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
(Alright)
Tell me that you're alright,
(Hi, everything's great)
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)
Oh please tell me that you're alright,
Yeah everything is alright.
(Hi, everything's great)
Everything is alright.
(Hey, everything's fine)
Hey, everything's fine [x3]
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[29 Jul 2005|12:34am] |
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yea so alot has happened this week:
went to brian's house sunday
then monday and tuesday he came over to my house... had a really good freakin time (swimming!)
didnt do much wednesday or today but tomorrow im going to work with his mom and him. and then saturday he's coming over to spend the day soooo....
thats about all thats going on right now with me so... yea.. bye!
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[18 Jul 2005|11:18pm] |
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I'M SOOOOOOOOOOO FREAKIN BORED!!!!!!!!!!
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[17 Jul 2005|06:24pm] |
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ok well Im back home. Italy was amazing. really long tho and we never stopped walking omg! it was crazy! owell. Kyla's party was yesterday. lots of fun! Brian gets back friday so cant wait for that. ummmm.... sides that not much happenin. so bye!
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[23 Jun 2005|06:05pm] |
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not much goin on...
got a horse show this weekend so i gotta get ready for that.
i leave next saturday to go to italy for two weeks... missing kyla's and brian's birthdays but i'll get em sumthin good in italy.
i guess thats about it...
if anyone wants to hang out next week i'm free except on tuesday and trust me i'll be bored.
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[22 Jun 2005|07:40pm] |
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Accentuated by the mobile dungeon of fluorescence
As I fall out of love, this wasn't supposed to happen
Not according to you
Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end
We'd have our own subway car in the middle of the night
I'd work the same job and play the same bars on every weekend
As the graffiti scrolls by
Please don't allow your voice to fade
Don't fall so weak to fault or blame
To give yourself reason for an end
And at the end of your low you pin my shoulders against the mattress
Arching your frame with your stomach pushed outward
Your head titling back with your mouth partially open
The sounds slur and elevate slowly in volume
When you wake up with your family gathered around
Remember that our love was true
And I will not allow you to destroy yourself
I hope that I'm not revealing too much
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[12 Jun 2005|08:49pm] |
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Yea so not much happening really except that I almost got grounded but w/e. Been kinda havin with Brian and Kyla this past week but other than that not much has really happened so I dont really have much to say.
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| Boyfriend! |
[06 Jun 2005|12:54pm] |
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Yea so I now have a boyfriend who I absolutely love! It's not Grant b/c I never talked to him but I'm glad I didnt b/c I would never of met Brian. Yea so when I went to Cocoa beach with my friend Alix we met this guy in the pool and we talked for a little bit and I got his phone # so I called him when I got home. We talked for a week and we went out on sunday with Meghan and Darell to University and it was sooooo much fun! And as of last night we are officially going out so I am extremely happy right now.
Yea so anyways.... thats what's goin on with me so yea. See ya!
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| Grant. |
[20 May 2005|10:34pm] |
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Yea so Neelam got Ernest to ask Nicole to ask Grant (confused yet?) if he liked me. This is how it went:
N: do you have a girlfriend?
G: no.
N: do you like heather?
G: ..?
E: heather tyndall. do you like her? b/c she likes you.
N: alot.
G: *blank stare*
Yea. That's all that was said. So I still dont kno if he likes me or not. This is soooooooo totally confusing me. Why does liking a guy have to be so complicated hmmm?
If anyone who knos Grant wants to like talk to him and see if he does or not I would be very much obliged to you. You would also make me very happy even if he didnt like me b/c at least then I would kno.
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[15 May 2005|08:50pm] |
OK! so went to see The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy with Kyla on Friday. It was hysterical! I loved the part where they're in the field of no ideas. that was just great! Anyways, we went to get gas after and then we went to Javatropolis and got iced chai. YUMMMMMM... anyways... saw Aaron and Josh while we were there and talked to them for a while. then we went home. Didnt do much saturday or sunday so yea.
Tomorrows the big day!!!
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| Quizzes!! |
[12 May 2005|09:21pm] |
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FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.
Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes
What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures + detailed answeres]
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You are dead inside and don't experience sadness
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Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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| Death |
[12 May 2005|08:19pm] |
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Well one of my horses is gonna get put down tomorrow, Friday the 13th. I'm really sad, he was one of my favorite horses. Yea so I wont be at school in case anyone is wondering why.
I almost got pulled over by a cop and my heart was about to pop out of my chest but he went around me. It was sooooo scary you have no idea!!!!
Grant situation: hopefully Kyla will ask him tomorrow when I'm not there but I think she'll either forget or chicken out. I really think he likes me so maybe we can get sumthin workin between us. Anyways I can always hope. He had his head down and facing me in my history class and when I glanced over one of his eyes was open and looking at me. He closed it really quickly when I looked at him. It makes me paranoid but he's hott so it's ok. =)
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[09 May 2005|10:28pm] |
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"Evangeline"
She came from Heaven well there's no point belaboring that
I've seen some trouble and I must admit that I'm in demand
I confront rejection with magnetic good intentions yet
hey Jack Get back in fact Don't do that
I act sharp
but feel uncertain
cuz next time
It could be curtains
Evangeline
Conspirator so fine
lend me your faith cuz mine is broken
Compared to mine
what is your crime Evangeline
Now just to be certain let's be sure to set the record straight
I could use an angel but I don't intend to split up the take
Never go for treason but I got reasons that don't warrant debate
My acts intact and in fact you're not all that
You act sure
but youre uncertain
cuz next time
It could be curtains
Evangeline
Conspirator so fine
lend me your faith cuz mine is broken
Compared to mine
what is your crime Evangeline
Well there's no use turning back
no use turning back
It's already much too late
When the house is burning
Evangeline
Conspirator so fine
lend me your faith cuz mine is broken
Compared to mine
what is your crime Evangeline
"Nothing To Lose"
Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know
Put concrete in my veins
I’d always walk home alone
So I became lifeless
Just like my telephone
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
Never played truth or dare
I’d have to check my mirror
To see if I’m still here
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches
Alone in the bathroom
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There’s nothing to gain
And I can’t fight the pain
Teachers said "it's just a phase"
When I grow up my children
Will probably do the same
Kids just love to tease
Who'd know it put me underground at seventeen
At seventeen
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There’s nothing to gain
And I can’t fight the pain
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
But the days don’t seem to change
There’s nothing to lose
My notebook will explain
There’s nothing to lose
When no one knows your name
There’s nothing to gain
And I just died today
It's Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Front Door
I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And its time for us to leave
Time is running, its running on empty and the gas is running out
I've decided that tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
So kiss me one last time
Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day
Where the flames grew as high as trees
And the world stopped for you and me
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(so hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
I will now bring new meaning to the word alone
Endless nights of dreaming of life
And the days we should have spent here
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this
Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand with him
Hand in hand with him
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(so hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)
Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape
I heard a voice through the dischord
Of a deluge of passers-by.
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by.
I swear I'll know your face in the crowd,
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering...
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied?
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey unloving
I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.
Jesus I'm ready to come home.
As you can tell I was really bored and looking up lyrics.
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| Lalala |
[08 May 2005|09:37pm] |
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Yea so I'm posting b/c Whit was nagging me about it in her FOUR PAGE NOTE!! I'm not joking either.
Not much has happened lately. I do like this guy at my school named Grant and I think he likes me. He's always staring at me in Psych class so... yea. ok I'm gonna go write Whit back. You will be sorry. *maniacal laugh*
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| Emo |
[06 Apr 2005|09:16pm] |
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The guy I love has a girlfriend.
I like a guy at school but have no chance with him.
My friend likes the same guy I like and is making it into a rivalry.
I'm a complete failure with my horses.
So how's ur life going?
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| Montana |
[27 Mar 2005|12:35pm] |
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Got back from Montana last night. they lost our luggage but it came this morning so all is good. OMG MONTANA IS SOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! I recommend that everyone go to montana. It'll take ur breath away.
yea so I havent talked to Kristi since I've been back but I think she's coming to our family dinner thing for Easter so I'll talk to her then.
so anyways... I guess I'll post later. See ya.
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| Update. |
[19 Mar 2005|01:16pm] |
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Ok so remember when I said that I was just POSITIVE that Max didnt like me? Yea well I just found out last night that he really really liked me alot but my bro got mad when he found out b/c he said Max wasnt good enough to go out with his sister. Ugh... brothers!
BUT!!... Kristi (my bro's gf) said that he said that b/c Max comes from a bad family and he had some bad habits (ex. smoking) and Sean didnt want me to be around that. She also said that all Max really needs is motivation to get him to do something and that when he was living with us he was really trying to cut back on smoking and he was doing things and had a job and stuff like that and it was b/c of me.
Sooo.... she said she would work on Sean and Max b/c she doesnt see anything wrong with me going out with him. So I'm really really happy now.
Oh yea and I'm going to Montana today for a week to go spring skiing. YEA!!
Anyways... I'll see ya'll in a week! bye!
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| NEWS BULLETIN!!! |
[02 Mar 2005|07:45pm] |
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I dont care who reads this even if its my brother or the guy Im about to mention:
I fell in love with Max. Ill admit it: I love him. I dont want to be cos nothin is gonna happen, I kno he doesnt like me but I cant help who I fall in love with.
So thats the big news flash if anyone cares or reads this.
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